PIP v5

* In Your Own Words
I will set a periodic practice. I need to stop slipping. I want to prove that I'm worth something to someone physical or not.

* Post A Pic

http://www.deviantart.com/art/stormy-night-121481698

Because I'm a derp on using the app.

Kinda goes with some UPG on Sunday. I was getting the push I needed again from Djehuty to go contact someone again. Though I wonder if I can get some help on this one this time.

* Musical Musings

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/afi/adeepslowpanic.html

I'm giving you guys the link to the lyrics because there's only live versions on YouTube and I would have preferred album versions. But with AFI doing a contest for a single cover for this song I think they may be making a video for it.

Anywho, while this song doesn't get stuck in my head like other songs do right now it fits. This song gives me a sense of floundering. And lately I've been feeling that way.

*Action, Action
I did some clean up of my shrine Sunday. Got the spiritual 2x4 that it needed to be done. I still have a bit of cleaning to do for it. I also want to make some stuff for it. Eventually I'll get bowls for it like I had planned for when I bought other stuff for it a while back. At least I can still give offerings.

* Eureka!
I need to learn when to keep my big mouth shut.

Goodbye World, Hello Kalos

Well I wish I could say that. I'm tired of all the school work. Pokémon Gen VI just had to come out over the weekend. Make it even harder for me to get motivated to do any homework. *eye roll*

Anywho, so I've been debating on either starting a new blog or just getting/making a new journal. I know I have unhealthy habits. One that I've been getting poked at to work on is my emotions. I bottle everything. And I know I can't keep doing that. So last night I decided I need to start recording what I bottle up. I need to get it out.

So between classes I went to the bookstore and got a journal. I personally like writing better. Harder for me to erase. Easier for me to hide. There's stuff that I need to get out but I just don't want anyone else to see. Maybe at some point some of the stuff I will share because I'm going to record everything. Everything that comes to mind.

Well class is about to start. So this will be all for today. Got a final and speech to write when I get home after work today. Joy.

PIP v4

* In Your Own Words
Screw everything! I just feel like I've been wasting my time with everything pagan and spiritual related. What's the point of me wasting my time when I feel like I'm not getting anywhere? I try to do something and it fails or backfires in my face somehow. Its like "Tell me what I should be doing so I'm not just wandering aimlessly!" But then again I either just can't hear or I doubt myself.

* Post A Pic

Silent Melody by trichardsen
The only thing right now that can still give me some kind of peace of mind. At least that's one thing I haven't lost. Being able to look up at the moon, whether day or night, and it giving me this sense of calm.

* Musical Musings

Kinda goes with the rage that's been building from what I touched in the In Your Own Words. But there's been other stuff that it just feels like I was just being used and then tossed aside when they finally got what they really wanted.

*Action, Action
Well right now two of my friends and I are working on this project. Its the one that I kind of hinted at in my previous blog post. I hope that it'll work out. But I've been doubting how well it will do.

* Eureka!
If you want something done right, do it yourself.

Q&A a Day + Rant

Yay my forgetful mind right? Well Sept 26th question was for the end of the day. Then I forgot about it. Then I kept forgetting and then I got sick. Still kinda sick but I'm just waiting for my nose to drain. And I've been debating on I I want to take NyQuil tonight or not. Gotta love NyQuil induced nightmares.

But people. I really hate the human race and always have wished I wasn't human. How ignorant people are to even the simplest things is so horrifying. Or how half assed things are done. I find myself thinking "What the hell were you thinking?" way too often.

That phrase "If you want something done right, you have to do it yourself." comes to mind. But then the issue of "Well how the hell am I supposed to do that?" comes up. I know what I would improve on. But how am I supposed to do everything else that goes with it. I could read everything under the sun. But that doesn't mean shit if I don't know how to put that into practice.

I just hope that I'm not going to be wasting my time and my friends' time as we get this project rolling. I just hope that its not going to back fire on me.

Sorry Peeps

Oh gods. Where did the year go?

Ok so I'm setting a goal for myself. Yesterday I got this Q&A a Day journal. And because I'm anal about starting in the middle I'm gonna start it here. Each day has a different question. And its a very pretty book. Oh hey. I was able to find it on Amazon. So I'll be posting that stuff here in hopes that when I can finally get back to my Kemetic studies I'll actually post something here.

So today's question: Do you plan, or are you flying by the seat of your pants?

I'm a little bit of both. I make a general plan but then fine details are on the fly. I know it pisses off people that I do that but generally I really don't care.

Pagan Insights Project Version 3

**This is a draft that I had saved from November 27th, 2012. Thought I'd leave this here for those wondering a bit of what happened between my last post and now. While it doesn't cover everything. It is still something that happened. I'm not going to bother to try to complete it since that'd be changing the mindset of the post. Enjoy**

So I know I've fallen behind. There really is no excuse for it. Semester's almost over (YAY!). Job sucks. Life's been pretty much the same. So to try to get me back into the swing of things I decided its time for another PIP post! *cheers*

* In Your Own Words

I am a slacker. I'm forgetful. I put things off and then I don't think about it until its really too late to do anything or I'm in the middle of something and I don't drop what I'm doing to go do that. But then with me getting sick I'm all "Blarg... Can't do anything now..." I also tend to bury myself in so many different projects. A while ago I planned on making everyone something for Christmas. Now on top of that I want to crochet myself a scoodie. And I want to read. And. And. And. What I really need to do is start really structuring my life. Then my religious studies won't go to the wayside either.

* Post A Pic

Interplay of Life

This image. I don't really know if I really can describe what it is about this image. Its just so true. And sometime people seem to forget that. I know I have a hard time sometimes remembering that when I hit rock bottom.

* Musical Musings

There was this one song that I was going to post here. But I can't remember what it was now.

Getting Back into the Swing of Things

Wow. Last September was the last time I posted? Where the hell did all that time go? At least now I'm back. I'm going to try to start posting here again. If anything, just to keep track of my thoughts and record my progress. To get started again I'm gonna to at least try to post a PIP version every month and after my finals record my thoughts in that 30 Days of Paganism meme thing. I may or may not create a second blog to keep track of my "witchier" type things since that's separate from my Kemetic practice. For now I may just keep it in this one, even its just so there's activity in this blog.

So I've got homework I should be doing. So I'll just leave you with music I found when I was looking for music to use for the Cosplay Contest at Shinboku Con this year.

Sadly I didn't get to use this one during the contest. If I remember right I only got through SS Anne starting from the beginning of the album.