Goodbye World, Hello Kalos

Well I wish I could say that. I'm tired of all the school work. Pokémon Gen VI just had to come out over the weekend. Make it even harder for me to get motivated to do any homework. *eye roll*

Anywho, so I've been debating on either starting a new blog or just getting/making a new journal. I know I have unhealthy habits. One that I've been getting poked at to work on is my emotions. I bottle everything. And I know I can't keep doing that. So last night I decided I need to start recording what I bottle up. I need to get it out.

So between classes I went to the bookstore and got a journal. I personally like writing better. Harder for me to erase. Easier for me to hide. There's stuff that I need to get out but I just don't want anyone else to see. Maybe at some point some of the stuff I will share because I'm going to record everything. Everything that comes to mind.

Well class is about to start. So this will be all for today. Got a final and speech to write when I get home after work today. Joy.

PIP v4

* In Your Own Words
Screw everything! I just feel like I've been wasting my time with everything pagan and spiritual related. What's the point of me wasting my time when I feel like I'm not getting anywhere? I try to do something and it fails or backfires in my face somehow. Its like "Tell me what I should be doing so I'm not just wandering aimlessly!" But then again I either just can't hear or I doubt myself.

* Post A Pic

Silent Melody by trichardsen
The only thing right now that can still give me some kind of peace of mind. At least that's one thing I haven't lost. Being able to look up at the moon, whether day or night, and it giving me this sense of calm.

* Musical Musings

Kinda goes with the rage that's been building from what I touched in the In Your Own Words. But there's been other stuff that it just feels like I was just being used and then tossed aside when they finally got what they really wanted.

*Action, Action
Well right now two of my friends and I are working on this project. Its the one that I kind of hinted at in my previous blog post. I hope that it'll work out. But I've been doubting how well it will do.

* Eureka!
If you want something done right, do it yourself.

Q&A a Day + Rant

Yay my forgetful mind right? Well Sept 26th question was for the end of the day. Then I forgot about it. Then I kept forgetting and then I got sick. Still kinda sick but I'm just waiting for my nose to drain. And I've been debating on I I want to take NyQuil tonight or not. Gotta love NyQuil induced nightmares.

But people. I really hate the human race and always have wished I wasn't human. How ignorant people are to even the simplest things is so horrifying. Or how half assed things are done. I find myself thinking "What the hell were you thinking?" way too often.

That phrase "If you want something done right, you have to do it yourself." comes to mind. But then the issue of "Well how the hell am I supposed to do that?" comes up. I know what I would improve on. But how am I supposed to do everything else that goes with it. I could read everything under the sun. But that doesn't mean shit if I don't know how to put that into practice.

I just hope that I'm not going to be wasting my time and my friends' time as we get this project rolling. I just hope that its not going to back fire on me.