Monday, September 3, 2012

Pagan Insights Project Version 2

Well eheheheh ^.^;
Yeah I kinda forgot about this for a while. Not just PIP but my blog in general. I forget what all was going on between now and the last time I posted but school started last week. I've been on and off writing letters to my sister. And have been elder sitting couple days a week. I think I would have preferred the job at Michaels. I think it was because I was going back to school that I didn't get that one and they were looking for more full time people. Or that my classes leaked into all the shifts. I knew I should have just made it so I had my classes spread out over the week. But nope. I just had to listen to everyone else and try to compact them all into two days. Tried. One of my classes was only available three days a week. Ok but now that the update's all said and done on to the PIP stuff!

* In Your Own Words
All I have to say is that I feel like I have been slacking. Its like I have some kind of block that's hard to climb over right now. I had started a guild on Gaiaonline back in January with the thought in mind that I can help others learn and use it as kind of that extra driving force to keep me studying. But so was the PBP when I was still doing that. While I lost interest in PBP I still kinda had the guild to help me a bit. But even now I'm kinda only half assing it, it feels. I get through answering half the questions I've gotten and then lose all motivation for it again (sorry guys). I still have sites open for when I finally get the motivation to go back and answer the rest of the questions. And that was before classes started up again. Now that classes started I don't know how I'm going to feel about putting any energy toward anything dealing with my path. There were quite a few things I was going to do for Set and Nebt Het's birthdays and Wep Ronpet but never got around to it. I still want to be useful to Them but I'm at a point where I feel like I slipped into a hole and don't know how to get myself out of it. I used to try to talk to at least Djehuty before going to bed and I haven't done that in so long. So that's kinda where I'm at right now.

Post A Pic
Well I would if I could. The image that sticks out in my mind right now is one that I've been meaning to draw for a while now but would start, doubt my abilities, and then give up. So I'll just explain the image. :P
The image I want to try to put on paper is me laying in bed with Djehuty leaning over me. I keep getting reminded of the image every time I hear that "Never forget" from Him. I want to try to get it out to show my devotion that while I might not be doing anything productive, in one of my dark places, or something else that it may not seem like I believe in Them, that I do remember that They're still there. Waiting.

* Musical Musings
I'm pretty sure I've said somewhere that I have nothing against Christian music. Either way I've found interviews where Lifehouse won't classify their music as Christian Rock anywho. But right now this song sticks out to me. Its kinda like "Hey dumb ass get your ass in gear if you want to feel this way again."

*Action, Action
Well I finally got around to cleaning up my shrine. I was going to do that for Wep Ronpet. And I moved things around a bit on it too. I'll try to post pictures of it some time.

Um... Well... I'll have to get back to you guys on this one. As I've said I've hit a block. I haven't really been reading much Pagan wise. Well I should say that I haven't learned anything new from what I've been reading. I've started reading What Thou Wilt by Jon Hanna but haven't gotten that far yet. So hopefully I actually have something next time around for this.


  1. I asked for you to set up the FAQ thread and then I haven't even looked at it since you posted it XD But I know it's there and I appreciate it.

    I find when I'm in a hole, and I haven't been doing the daily things I'm meant to do, that just picking them up and starting again without worrying over all the time I haven't been doing it really does help. Even if it's just once a week it gets you started again.

    1. Oh thanks XP But you're not missing much on what I have in it so far. I've been thinking about searching to see if there's other Kemetic FAQs out there and taking some questions from those, rewording the answers, and then linking so people can read the rest of the questions they have.

      Funny that you say that. That's basically the same thing I get from Djehuty. >.< I just have a hard time actually doing it because I want to feel useful to Them and I don't feel that I am when I just stop what I'm doing and not pick it back up again after who knows how long.

    2. Sometimes I'm like that - and I won't start up again because I feel so guilty for not doing this or that for so long, and I guess on some level I feel like if I start up some element of practice again I'll bring Their attention to the things I have not been doing! XD Which I guess is pretty dumb, because I'm still not doing those things.

    3. I think whether we do it or not, They notice. I cannot tell you how many times I've stopped doing something and when I finally start it back up again I get some form of "Welcome back" depending on Who answers. But I do know how you feel. Though what stops me from picking it back up again is the fear that when I start it up again, They won't answer. Like I've run out of tries and They moved on giving up on me.

  2. I'm sure that you are nowhere near running out of tries young lady.